My hold on reality is tenuous at times. I roll up in my sheets, comforter, and pillow, wrapping my arms around me. I don't know how I fell asleep—fearful of his coming, down the hall, through the door, and for me.
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Tag: depression
Delight from the Dismal
Out of a world of mass shootings, bombings, child abuse, murder, depression, disease, and decay--a generally dismal world, you choose that burgundy throw pillow and place it at just the right angle on your sofa, creating delight.
Abstract Inspires Concrete
I have to have a little bravado to overcome fear and a little hope to overcome doom to move beyond.
Beauty Overwhelming Trauma
This is one of those times when the discoveries in trauma with PTSD often overwhelms me. I would sink in a morass of despair, anger, and hurt if I didn't focus and meditate on something pure and simple, such as, the photography I am practicing this summer. I am concentrating a lot of effort in …
The Life Preserver
Sometimes I lose hope. Okay, maybe I lose hope a lot. Don't you, at least some of the time? Hope is like this life preserver that we hang onto in our individual oceans. We try to hang on as hope bobs along in the rocking, white-crested waves, but sometimes the waves are so overwhelming we …
Just Wondering, God
I am just wondering, God, what you have in mind when things pile up in my life faster than I can sort them out and/or when things pile up against the natural order of life (if there is such a thing). What do you have in mind in my breaking my ankle when I haven't …
A Kairos
"Kairos" is a Greek noun, meaning time or season. The meaning also carries with it the idea of being appropriate or suitable to the time. I am in a kairos now. Over the past six months, I have been in sort of an awakening. It seems as if I am waking up from the eight …
